Happy holidays!

Just wanted to wish everyone a wonderful holiday season. Whether you celebrate Christmas, Kwanzaa, Hanukkah, or something else, I hope you have a wonderful time with your loved ones.

If you get a chance, please take a moment and say a prayer for all the loved ones who couldn't be home for the holidays this year.

And if you have little ones, you can track Santa 's progress around the world here!

Whew!

We've made it to 28 1/2 weeks. Whoever said that pregnancy was beautiful and wonderful and a breeze LIED. They should have their mouth washed out with soap!

I had a good dr's appt today though. Even though I failed the 1 hr gestational diabetes test last week, I passed the 3 hr this week. And both babies are now head down which explains two things:

1. Why my belly never seems to be still now (talk about a baby dance going on) and
2. Why I'm peeing every 20 minutes

Oh yeah, they're flattening my bladder. And you can't just go pee. You have to sit there after the first pee and wait for the second flow to start. Cuz there's always a second flow.

But we're doing good. Something tells me I'll look back on these bedrest days with conflicting emotions; remembering them fondly as I recall the quiet and rest yet also remembering the boredom and waiting. I'm ready for my boys to arrive but am I ready for the noise? LOL

Caling all lurkers/bloggers

Curiosity has struck!

I often wonder who reads blogs. I know I lurk at a lot of blogs without leaving comments but I go to them regularly.

Recently I've seen some new names here and have enjoyed going to new blogs. But I'm guessing I should leave comments or some sign that I visited even if it's just a smile or LOL.

I'm curious as to who all visits here.

So I'm asking if you drop by, leave a smile or hello or something along with your blog addy. I don't know if this is considered rude to ask but what the hell...I'm asking anyway.

Especially as I'm stuck on bedrest and it gives me more places to visit and read online! LOL

World traveling

Gigi sent this to me. It's a pretty nifty tool to see where all you've been. My problem is I've forgotten half the places I've ever been. LOL

An awakening

I've always known I wanted to be a mama someday. But I never knew just how much until last week.

I was ecstatic at finding out I was pregnant. What most people don't know is that I wasn't too happy finding out I was having twins. It quickly became more of an overwhelming deal than a blessing. I didn't want to talk pregnancy, didn't want to look at baby stuff, was depressed, and just not happy. However as time went by I grew more and more excited about my boys.

On Monday my world turned upside down. When I looked down and saw that blood I just knew the worst had happened. I was so panicked I couldn't feel any movement and all I could see was bright red blood.

I cried the whole way to the doctor's office. It wasn't until I heard their separate heartbeats that I could catch my breath.

At that moment I came to realize just how much they have grown to mean to me. My Connor and my Brodie. My world would not be the same if I didn't have them with me, inside me, growing, wiggling, and loving them.

I guess you could say I had an epiphany. I realize how blessed I am every day. I know this won't be the only scare they'll give me over the next umpteen years, I just know that life wouldn't be right without them here now.

We spent a week in the hospital where I got to see them on an ultrasound (kicking each other) and hear their heartbeats several times a day. They would only tolerate the monitor for so long before they started kicking at it.

Our goal now is 32 weeks. Anything past that is that much more special.

I'm on full bedrest. No getting up other than potty and shower and doctor's appts.

So in a way, the last week was a blessing and a trial. We've made it through this trial, got a few more to go, and hopefully they'll stay put for a few more months.